sometimes, you try to do something, you commit to it, and you fail. and sometimes, you think 'man, that really sucked.' and sometimes, you just feel like being alone after that. and sometimes, you just start believing that there is not really a reason for hope, for success, for truly living.
that is where i once was. not with a girl. not with my job. with money. i was not taught how to use it, how to save it, how to invest it. i just spent the amount that i made, not really saving, not really thriving. just getting by. i tried several times to do better with my money, to no avail. nothing really worked or helped. i found myself not in a horrible place, but on the path to a horrible destination. i could see in 20 years just continuing to squeak by in life. and i hated that image.
and then it all changed.
i found the hope that i needed. the hope and belief that my life could be different. i read some weblogs, listened to radio shows, and then finally decided to read 'your total money makeover.' i found hope. my perspective changed. i believed in myself. i will not be isolated from my issues. i will face them. i will face the pain. and i will also face the beauty that eventuates, the joy, the satisfaction that can only come from risking the pain.
i am no longer going to be in debt.
i am no longer going to be a slave to lenders.
i am no longer going to borrow money.
i am now free.
-lib
and a rock feels no pain.
and an island never cries.
simon
i am a rock
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